Thursday, August 15, 2013


J&J(btw instead of calling them IP's from now on I will call the IP's J&J) have found an egg donor! I'm freaking pumped because that means it shouldn't be too much longer. I'm REALLY hoping to transfer in October because it will be less stressful. I don't think transferring in November will be stressful but it's just cutting it close to Thanksgiving and we are going home for Thanksgiving and I don't want the transfer and my trip home to interfere with each other and postpone the transfer until December. If we don't start meds in September then we won't be transferring in October. So we will see. The egg donor still has to go through the medical screening and the contract part first and then we will start our medications to sync our monthly cycles! And THEN THE TRANSFER!! Just a little update for now


Sunday, August 11, 2013

TS vs GS

So since I have announced to people that I am going through the process to become a surrogate no one has asked what type of surrogate I'm going to be. I have realized that the reason they don't ask is because they don't know that their are two different types of surrogates. There is a traditional surrogate and a gestational surrogate. Most people THINK I'm doing a traditional surrogacy but I am not. I'm doing gestational surrogacy. First I will explain what the difference is and a few pictures of surrogates. Then why I decided to do gestational instead of traditional.

Traditional surrogacy is the oldest form of surrogacy. A traditional surrogate is the carrier and the egg donor. So instead of using an egg donor or the intended mothers egg she uses her own. A traditional surrogate is also genetically related to the child she is carrying since she is using her own egg.

This is Jennifer she is currently doing a Traditional Surrogacy,
in the picture she is 25 weeks pregnant and is currently 28 weeks pregnant.

Gestational surrogacy is a woman who carries a child that is not genetically related to her. She has an embryo or embryos transferred to her uterus that was made by using the mothers egg or an egg donor and fathers sperm or sperm donor. Gestational surrogates have NO genetic relation to the child. If their was a DNA test done with the gestational surrogate and the child it would come up negative.

 This is Kelly M she was 29 weeks pregnant with boy/girl twins, and she is a gestational surrogate.
Below is her with the parents and the twins she carried for them.

This is Kelly G she is also a gestational surrogate.
In the top picture she is with the intended fathers and 26 weeks pregnant, in the bottom picture is her with the baby boy she carried for them.

The main difference between traditional and gestational surrogacy is a traditional surrogate is the child's biological mother and a gestational surrogate has no biological connection to the child. This is the reason I decided to become a gestational surrogate instead of a traditional surrogate. If it was for a family member or close friend I would do traditional surrogacy if that's what they wanted but through an agency I will only do gestational. I feel like being a traditional surrogate I would become to emotionally attached to the child unlike gestational I won't become as attached. YES I know I will become attached to the child I am carrying for 9 months but not like I would if I was carrying a child that is biologically related to me.

So for those of y'all that care I am doing gestational surrogacy not traditional. Well that's it for now. Hope you enjoyed my little informative blog :)


Monday, August 5, 2013

My 30 Hour LA Visit

I had an AWESOME time in LA. It was amazing. I completely forgot that it gets chilly there in the evening but thankfully it wasn't too bad.

Thursday morning I dropped the kids off with Kelly, a friend of ours who lives down the street, and headed to the Raleigh airport. For those of yall that dont know Kelly was one of the first 3 people I told about me wanting to be a surrogate(she may not even know this haha) I had to tell a few people and use them as references. Well one had to be near me and not be my husband. Kelly and I had just recently started hanging out with the kids and she was NORMAL! I have met other normal people but its very rare to come by haha. I liked hanging out with her and the kids liked her kids. I didn't want her to take it badly and not want to ever hang out again. Thankfully she took it great and offered to help anytime I needed it. I didn't want to abuse her offer but I REALLY needed someone to keep the kids while I went to LA. Adam was warned ahead of time he'd be in the field and I have no family here. I thought about interviewing people asap but was really nervous about some random person watching my kids for 2-3 days(I was leaving Thursday morning and wouldn't be home until Saturday morning. Adam was told he would be home Friday but you never know with the military he could of came home Sunday for all we knew haha) these kids are my life. I already knew I trusted her and the she has a son the same age as Brett and Brynna doesn't care as long as she's with Brett. PLUS she also has a baby and Brynna LOVES babies. Finally I asked her and SHE SAID YES! This took a huge weight off my shoulders but still made me super nervous. Not because I didn't trust her but because of what I was trusting her with. My babies. This was the first time Brett and Brynna have ever stayed overnight with ANYONE other than family. And I will show you the picture she sent me the first night that shows how the sleepover went. Another girl I know that lives across the street from us(I don't want to post her name because I don't know if she wants me to or not) offered to watch Boidoe for me while I was gone. She didn't know why I was leaving because I hadn't made it public yet but they were both HUGE lifesavers and helped out tremendously. Just because it wasn't my kids doesn't mean I would say yes to anyone who wanted to help with Boidoe. I needed to trust this person in my house. I had a few people offer but I was giving someone a key to come into my home without me there. And also Boidoe is our 3rd child if yall haven't noticed on facebook :) haha. So I wanted to give a BIG thank you to both of them :) Now back to the LA trip.
As you can tell they had a great time :)

My flight left at 11am but I had to leave at 7am to get there on time. Well I could of left about 8am but thankfully I left by 7:30 because what I didn't know was that the highway I PLANNED on taking was shut down and I had to go back and take a different route. Finally got to the airport and got on the plane..
Yup I got the VERY back of the plane. It was extremely LOUD! And to top it off there was no window? You know whenever you get on the plane or get your ticket and your like YES WINDOW SEAT? I don't know about you but I love the window seat. Then you get back to your seat at the VERY back of the plane and guess what Sorry about your bad luck we had a budget cut and couldn't afford a window for this row? BUT you get to enjoy the wonderful smell of human pee and crap. Hope you enjoy your flight. As soon as we landed for my second flight I went to the delta desk and asked to change my seat for the second flight. They only had one option available. It was only like 8 seats up but I didn't care haha. My second flight I tried sleeping but it just didn't work out. When I sleep I'm a mouth breather and I sleep with my mouth completely open. It's far from cute. And every time I'd start to doze off I felt my jaw drop open and I'd wake back up. So for the rest of the flight I played games.
I felt so old doing crosswords and drinking coffee but this flight was kicking my butt and I needed something to keep me awake. The coffee was disgusting but I just dealt with it. I NEEDED COFFEE!  
I played candy crush A LOT on this flight and even during the trip because I had a lot of down time. Well GUESS WHAT? I still have not passed this darn level. I even paid $2 extra to try and pass it and NOPE! (BTW don't tell Adam about me paying money for a game haha)

I finally got to the airport and the super shuttle picked me up and took me to my hotel. OMG TRAFFIC WAS HORRIBLE! I have only been to LA once and it was years ago we didn't really stop we just drove through. So I was glad I did not get a rental car. I got to the hotel and at first was a little disappointed. I thought it was an outside hotel. You know like those cheap motel/hotels where the doors are OUTSIDE and it just seems cheap and scary. Well once I really looked around I realized that it was an indoor hotel its just that the breakfast area was in the center of the hotel and that they had that open. It's hard to explain haha. 
I got to my room and was ready for bed but also starving. I knew I really wanted sushi but I also didn't want to go too far so I decided I'd just walk down the street and see what I found. Well as I was walking out the door I decided to ask the people at the front desk and they recommended a place called BAD Sushi and it was about 1/2 a mile walk but I was fine with that

The Sushi was AMAZING! And then I treated myself to some ice cream afterwards.

The next morning I woke up and got breakfast then got ready for the day.

Breakfast was okay. The coffee wasn't all that great but I'm picky when it comes to coffee so thats to be expected. It was better than the airplane coffee though haha. The chocolate muffin was good and the eggs were okay.. The cinnamon roll was a little too sweet. All in all I had a good, stay customer service was great and the people were really friendly. 

Friday afternoon around 11ish I finished packing and getting ready and at 11:45am they called for me a taxi to take my to my appointment. I got in the taxi and he asked me for the address I gave him the address and it took him a minute to figure out where it was. I didn't want him to know I was not from Cali so I told him it's about 5 minutes away(I mapped it on my iphone before we left) and he laughed and said "more like 20" then I realized CRAP I'm in LA not Fayetteville! LA traffic SUCKS! It was horrible! Thankfully it only took about 15 minutes but that was a $10 taxi ride and we only drove 2 miles! So I finally got to the appointment around noon and my appointment was at 12:30 so what did I do while I was there facebook, instagram, and took pictures. This office was GORGEOUS! Like I wanted to live bring my blanket and just move in haha. 
YES I had to make it EXTRA LARGE so you could see all the gorgeous details! It had 2 flat screen tvs, a pretty bench that is not pictured, Some coffee thing that I was too scared to use it made all different types of drinks, these 2 neat bench/seating things, and a bunch of pretty chairs. Oh and those pretty flowers. Just everything was gorgeous. Now lets move on haha.

So I got called back to the Doctors office. He had a bunch of questions. Do I smoke? No. Do I drink? On occasiona. Where do I live? Fayetteville. How many times I've been pregnant? Twice. How many children do I have? 2. Have I had an IUD? Yes. CRAP! I did not want him to ask me this. I already knew what would happen if he asked me this. WHY DID HE HAVE TO ASK THIS?? Well if you have had an IUD you have to go through something called a Mock Cycle? What is a Mock Cycle you ask? It is where you go through all of the pain and suffering for the transfer BUT you don't really do the transfer. The reason they do this is because say if my uterus has scarring from the IUD then my body would not react correctly to the mock cycle and they would not approve me to be a surrogate yet. So he gave me the prescriptions for the mock cycle medications and the instructions on what to do. I was so bummed out this was extra time and money being spent to see if I was going to be approved or not. I seriously wanted to cry. BUT I sucked it up and dealt with it. Then we went into a room and I had to have a ultrasound to check my uterine lining, ovaries, and just see how my baby making parts looked. His exact words were, "Well you know how I told you, you needed a mock cycle??" "Forget I ever said that." I was so confused and terrified? What was wrong? Was I pregnant? Did the IUD screw up my uterus THAT MUCH? WHAT? So all I can say was Oh no whats wrong? And he said, "Your uterine lining is perfect." YAY!! NO MOCK CYCLE!!! I was so excited! GO KAYLA AND MY SUPER BABY MAKING PARTS! After that I had to have my blood pressure checked. My blood pressure is normally 110/70 even pregnant my blood pressure is never over 120/80. The night before I started thinking to myself watch my blood pressure go high during the screening and them disqualify me for my stupid blood pressure. Well they checked my blood pressure and GUESS WHAT? It was 141/82? WHAT THE HECK! I was literally freaking out. I kept telling the nurse how my blood pressure had NEVER EVER been that high. So she checked it on the other arm. It went up to something like 144/84 or something like that. I was freaking out. Didn't understand why it was so high. So she told me to quit thinking about it, they would do the rest of the screening and someone else would check it. So I had my blood drawn.
I HATE getting blood drawn. My veins SUCK. I mean literally SUCK! Do you see a vein there? Nope! NOTHING! Thankfully they could faintly see the vein and only had to poke me once. The first nurse didn't want to do it because she didn't want to chance me having to get poked more than once. THANK GOD! Because that would of been a record breaker! Even though my veins are most of the time not visible I have only been poked once every time I have had to give blood. Now bad to getting my blood pressure taken again. HOPEFULLY for the last time.. A new nurse checked it and this time it was.... DRUM ROLL PLEASE.....  150/90!!!!!!!!!!!! ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME! Was I dying? So the doctor came in and told me to lay down for a little bit and he would personally come check it... 30 minutes later he came back and check it manually and THANK YOU JESUS IT WAS BACK TO NORMAL! 104/74 or something like that I don't remember it was just NORMAL! 

YAY! I was able to leave the clinic now and go get something to eat. Last time I ate was breakfast around 8:30am and it was now 3:30pm! I WAS STARVING! So I started walking right across the street was this cute pizza joint and on the sign it said it was healthy. Healthy pizza? Sure why not haha. I got a veggie pizza to make myself feel a little better about it :) and it was delicious! I mean really really good. A lot better than pizza hut and papa johns ;) 
After I was done with pizza I thought about calling for a taxi to take me to the mall or something but instead remembered I saw a massage place down the street.. It wasn't really down the street it was like a mile away but I still decided to walk. It felt great out and I just wanted to see what all was around the area since I would end up going back in a few months. So I walked, and walked, and WALKED. It seemed like it took forever but I finally got there. I was SO excited to get a massage it had been months since I last had a massage. I planned on getting one on vacation but it was like $280 for Adam and I to get a massage at the condo so we decided thanks but no thanks. This place in Cali was only $45 for an hour. She told me to get undressed. I was only expecting a back massage so I took off my shirt and bra and kept my pants on. She laughed and told me to take everything off. So I took everything off but my panties. I cover up and lay down and she came back in. The first thing she did was pull my panties ALL the way off my butt! I was a little freaked out but I REALLY wanted this massage! She covered me up with towels and massage first on top of towels. I was like PLEASE dont let this be what she does the WHOLE HOUR! Where is the lotion and the skin to skin I want a real massage. 5 minutes go by and nothing. FINALLY she takes the towels off and gets the lotion! You don't know how excited this got me! My back has been killing me lately and she could tell once she went to work haha. That massage was AWESOME! I was a little uncomfortable and at times WAITING for her finger to go up my butt or something and that would of crossed the line. I would of grabbed my clothes and bag and ran out of the place BUTT NAKED! Not even kidding. The massage went great and I got over the fact that God and the massage therapist could see my butt for the whole hour massage. BTW WHILE I was getting this massage my phone kept ringing. I had it on silent but it still vibrates. I secretly charged it while I was getting the massage. I was using their outlets because my phone only had 8% left. I thought it was Adam but before I went into the massage place I text him and told him I was leaving the phone behind a counter to charge and not to call me because I wouldn't hear it. So I didn't know why he was calling. I think my phone vibrated like 10 different times. And it was not short vibrates they were long and loud -___- So once I was done and got dressed I looked at my phone. I had 6 missed calls and 2 text from MY MOM! I called her back and the first thing she says is "I thought you were kidnapped! Why didn't you answer my calls?" I told her mom I was getting a massage and you kept trying to interrupt me! She was like your in another state far away don't scare me like that! I didn't understand why you told Adam you were putting your phone behind a counter what counter were you using? You could of been kidnapped Kayla! I was like MOM I didn't put it behind a counter I just wanted to wait until AFTER the massage to tell Adam haha. But I was busted about half way through. I paid for the massage with my card and we have a joint account so he checked out account when my mom started to worry and that's when he realized that I wasn't kidnapped I was just getting a massage.. BUSTED! But whenever he realized that it was a 1 hour FULL body massage for just $45 he didn't care haha. Plus it could of been worse. 

After that I headed back to the hotel. It was about another mile walk but I was in no rush. During that walk I saw about 8 different homeless people and seriously wanted to feed every single one of them. If I would of passed an atm or something I would of pulled out cash for each of them. It seriously broke my heart.. I have seen homeless people before but nothing like this. Once I got to my hotel I still had another 2 hours to kill. So I headed to BAD Sushi again! If yall can't tell. I'm in love with Sushi and this place is AMAZING! I plan on going back to this place whenever I go back to Cali for the transfer. This time I took my time walking and looked at all the different stores that were near it. I found a place called Blick or something like that. It was an art store and I almost didn't go in. But I saw these ugly cute stuffed animals in the window and decided to spend a few minutes in there to see if I found anything for the kids. I found something called a munny for Brett and got Brynna the ugly cute stuffed animal.
 If you must know what a munny is I have no idea. They have different kinds and colors. I got the iron man one because Bretts room is the avengers and it matched his room theme. Brett was so excited to put all the stickers on it whenever I gave it to him. Whenever I got back I will probably get a few more because he loved them.
I honestly had no idea what to get Brynna but she loves stuffed animals and loves pink so I got her this ugly cute stuffed thing. And she loved it! 

Once I was done with getting them these things I went and ate sushi and headed back to the hotel to wait for my shuttle. I got to my hotel probably 10 minutes before my pick up window started. My pick up window was from 7:30-7:45pm. The guy didn't get there until 8pm! I wasn't that worried UNTIL I realized holy crap we are picking up other people! PLEASE DON'T MAKE ME MISS THIS FLIGHT! I WANT TO GO HOME! Thankfully it was only one other person after me and we headed to the airport. It was 3 girls in the car along with the male driver and what do girls do? We talk haha. One of the girls and I were flying delta and the other girl was flying Korean Air. Turns out she was flying back home to Korea! A lot of yall may not know but about 11 months ago I moved back home from Korea. Adam was stationed in Korea for a year and the kids and I ended up moving there with him part of the time he was there. It was so neat meeting with someone who did kind of the exact opposite and moved from Korea to the US. She asked me how I liked it and I told her I LOVED IT! I asked her how she liked it and she said it was different but she really enjoyed it. She told me thank you for liking her country and I told her I was glad she enjoyed it here. It was so neat meeting here. SO I HAD to take a picture with her. She was so sweet and more than happy to take a picture with me.
Not the best picture but it was night time and I was using my front facing iphone camera and its not always the greatest. I got to my area printed out my boarding pass, got through security with no issues. Then got to my gate, sat down, and charged my phone. All the charging docks at the airport were taken so me being the rebel I am I sat down by an outlet that was not marked for charging purposes. Yep, I know.. I'm hardcore :) 

My flight was supposed to take off at 10pm. Do flights EVER take off on time??? NO! This did not make me happy. I was already exhausted. It was 1am North Carolina time. And I'm normally in bed and asleep before 11pm at home. They finally had us all loaded around 10:30 and we finally took off! This was the MOST uncomfortable plane ride! You know that massage I had earlier.. I needed another one. But just the butt massage part. My butt was SO numb and uncomfortable. It was miserable. I'm fine with tight spaces but the seat needed a LOT more cushion. I'd fall asleep for a few minutes and wake right back up. It was not a good sleep like I was expecting.. BUT on a good note. I sat 4 rows back from first class so I was considered at the FRONT of the plane. AND I got a window seat!! BIG BALLA!! I was so excited. Also I HAD A WINDOW. You remember at the beginning of this blog where I said my row did NOT have a window seat because I was the VERY last row of the plane. Well this time I got the window seat AND a window. I was pretty excited about that :) 

My plane landed at 6am North Carolina time. And they could not get me off that plane fast enough.. I was so uncomfortable, exhausted, I STUNK, and I needed sleep! But I was not cranky. I was still super friendly to everyone. Thats my southern hospitality in me :) So I got in my car turned on pandora and JAMMED OUT! I mean hardcore. My volume was on 30+ it ranged haha. Those of yall that think 30 isn't that loud.. Well in my car... IT IS! It only goes up to 40. I think? But I seriously JAMMED OUT! The whole way home. If I didn't know a song. O well I acted like I did. If I knew a song I sang it loud and proud like I was singing on stage for thousands to hear. THE WHOLE WAY HOME! I sang and sang and sang. That is what I do when I drive tired. Because if I don't sing. I chance falling asleep. And I did not want to do that. So I SANG! BTW it wasn't a short trip it was about 1 1/2 hours. I got home and guess what. I DIDN'T HAVE A HOUSE KEY! I gave one house key to the dog sitter and Adam had the spare. So I called Adam and thankfully he answered on the first try. I got home a little after 8am and crashed out. 
I was miserably tired but I MADE IT! Yes this is me after a 4-5 hour flight and about a 2 hour drive on about 3 hours of sleep! I don't look that bad do I haha.

I honestly have no clue if EVERYTHING is in here and right now I don't want to go back through and proof read. I'm so darn lazy haha. I will go back and reread it in a few days. My blog post will VERY rarely ever be this long because I'm not a fan of long blog post. But there was a lot that went on in those 30 hours it was hard to make this post short. So I hope you enjoyed reading it.


Saturday, August 3, 2013

Kayla, What In The World Were You Doing In Cali?

I thought about just keeping this blog private but decided this will be my way to I guess let everyone else that matters know. I also thought about not posting anything about it on facebook but it was awkward telling people not to post anything about it my facebook. This will become a big part of my life soon, it kind of already is and soon people will start asking questions. I know I live 1000 miles away from home but its weird being secretive. I didn't want to publicly announce on facebook so instead I was like how about I make a blog post about it and the people who want to really know will click on the blog post and actually read it. The people that don't care don't have to read it. So here it is..

Thursday morning I left for Los Angeles and a lot of people were wondering why I was there so this will be my "coming out" blog post to all the people that don't know yet.. Most of my close friends and family know. But it's getting to the point where I'm tired of having to feel like I have to hide it. I know not everyone is going to be understanding and not everyone will agree with what I'm doing it and I'm okay with that. My dad and my gigi aren't completely on board with it and don't agree with it and I'm okay with that. They told me why they wouldn't do it and why they think I shouldn't do it. I know they will still love me no matter what and I'm thankful for that. I know people will be vocal about how they feel about it and REALLY disagree and again I'm okay with that. If you want to delete me as a facebook or instagram friend okay that's fine with me. Well here goes nothing! I am going through the process to be a GESTATIONAL surrogate. The reason I put gestational in cap locks is because there are 2 types of surrogates a traditional(which I will never do) and a gestational which is the one I am doing. If you want to know the difference google it. One day I may make a blog post about it because it seems a lot of people do not know the difference and that seems to be why a lot of people don't agree with surrogacy.

I have put a LOT of thought into becoming a surrogate. Done a lot of research. Spoke with a lot of other surrogates who had good and bad experiences. I played with the thought for awhile and then one day brought it up to Adam, he was NOT on board at first. I mean he didn't even want to discuss it. Let's just say I was far from happy(he had to make his own sandwich for dinner that night haha). I wrote him a letter explaining why I wanted to do it and why I felt so passionate about it and then let the idea go. I had already began speaking with a few agencies, not to begin the process but to just get more information about their agencies. One night I planned on emailing the agencies and telling them thank you for their time but right now I was not ready to go forward with surrogacy. That afternoon he came home for lunch and all he said was, "I'm on board." I was like WHAT? He said, "I support you 100%" my face lit up like a Christmas tree. I did not want to become a surrogate unless I had Adams approval and support. This was not changing my hair color, getting my nose pierced, or anything that could be "temporary" this is a 12-24 month commitment and sometimes even a life long commitment. I mean I know that this will not be our child but this experience will change us for the rest of our life and I did not want to start this journey on a bad note with my husband. This was a commitment we BOTH had to make and be in together. So I decided on an agency and we went forward. We had to speak with social workers and I had to take some type of personality test and you can read about both of those experiences here and here. We were also paired with a set of IP's(Intended Parents) that ended up denying us and you can read about that here. But then we got paired with a new set of IP's and we were super excited whenever we got their profile. You can read about our experience when we skyped them here. Adam has been awesome during this whole experience and I know he will be great during the rest of it. We are both really excited about this experience.

So now to answer your question. Why was I in Cali? I had to go to a fertility clinic to be screened and the doctor there had to clear me to be a surrogate. I left Thursday morning and came home Friday night but landed in North Carolina Saturday EARLY morning -___- I really enjoyed the trip it was my first time since my girls trip to NYC to actually get away. But I really liked that this trip was just ME! It was very relaxing. I was really hoping Adam could go but he had to be in the field for work while I was gone. Tomorrow I will post the blog about my trip to Cali. I'm too lazy right now and tired. I only got about 5 hours of sleep and it was not 5 hours together it was 30 minutes here, 10 minutes there, 30 minutes again, 2 hours, and you get the picture right haha. If I didn't tell you I was going to be a surrogate before this post don't feel bad. I only told like a handful of people mainly my parents, my 2 best friends, a really good friend of mine here at Bragg, and that's about it.. I have way too much family to tell EVERY one of y'all. Plus I don't really have everyone's phone number anymore. It doesn't mean your not important. I still love all of y'all it just got overwhelming trying to tell EVERYONE. I guess that's it for now.
*If you would like to keep up with my journey you look over to the right and either follow me if you have a google account or blog or you can follow by email and whenever I post a blog you will get an email of it and can follow me that way. Also if you'd like to read my other blog posts you can click the my blog title at the top of the page.

(If their are typos, I used the wrong there/their/they're, your/you're, or whatever else please forgive me I'm exhausted but can't go back to sleep until tonight so I decided to update my blog)

WOW! This is a quick edit. I did not realize how many views I'd actually get. Since I never publicly posted my blog anywhere I only got a few views from my surrogate friends I follow and that follow me. I think the most views I got in a day were probably around 20. It keeps slowly going up and is over 450 now but I was expecting maybe 100 views so whenever I realized I hit way over 100 I was amazed. Thank yall for viewing my blog :)

Why Surrogacy?

I have slowly been telling my family and close friends that I want to be a surrogate. And the first thing they ask is "Why?". I know pretty soon once the journey gets further along more people will find out and be curious about "Why?" also. So I decided to make a blog post about it since its not just a simple answer.

I have 2 beautiful, healthy, amazing children of my own. The perfect pair. One boy and one girl. Brett and Brynna. They are my world. My universe. My life. I cannot imagine my life without them. Yes I had kids early and they were unexpected but they were unexpected miracles. I look at my children sometimes and can get a little emotional. I made them. Yes with Adams help but I made them, I carried them for 9 months with no complications and not a lot of people can do that.
You hear stories how a married couple has been trying to get pregnant for so many years and still nothing. No pregnancy. Nothing. Then you hear stories about how the wife just can't stay pregnant. Every time she ends up miscarrying. It's heartbreaking. But then what about same sex couples who can't get pregnant and adoption is made so hard for them? Why shouldn't they be allowed to have children? Just because they are gay doesn't mean they can't care for a child. Any one of these couples would make great parents, gay or straight, but for some reason their body cannot make or carry a child.  So they turn to surrogacy. I am able to help someone make their baby. I am able to give someone a little tiny miracle. A life. A blessing. These past few weeks I have been reading stories how some of these women have been surrogates 6 times! And have children of their own. Now I love being pregnant but I don't think I could be a surrogate 6 times. But I give them major props! That's likes 8 times being pregnant if we decide to have no more children!!! My wish is to be a surrogate twice. MAYBE three times if one of the IP's(intended parents) wants to do a sibling journey with me. But we will see when we get there. But these women are amazing! I have cried reading so many birthing stories and even the matching process. Its such a selfless thing for them to do. Not many women can become surrogates. Their are many requirements that can disqualify you and a lot of them are things that are out of your control.

I also LOVED being pregnant. With Brynna I didn't like it as much but it still wasnt as bad as most people make it out to be. I didn't get morning sickness. I wasn't that hormonal or emotional. I didn't want to kill Adam 90% of the time. I didn't hate being fat(I didn't even think I was fat I just thought of myself as being pregnant haha). I slept fine until the last few weeks whenever everything was uncomfortable haha. I honestly enjoy being pregnant. Now this will be my 3rd pregnancy and I have heard each pregnancy gets more and more uncomfortable. So we will see. But I'm also young which in the long run can benefit me. I know I'm not as skinny as I used to be and didn't bounce back as fast after Brynna like I did with Brett but with me being young it is a tad bit easy for me to get back into shape compared to someone 10-20 years older than me. A lot of y'all may be thinking well why not have another child? Yes we could have another child but right now we don't want to have any more kids.

So those are my main reasons. In a few days or weeks I will do a F.A.Q. post and answer some of the main questions people ask. I know not every one will agree with my decision of becoming a surrogate and I'm okay with that. I hope you enjoyed reading and understand a little better why I want to be a surrogate.